INSIDER: Chapter 8 Teaser

Chapter 8 - Ja'ya - Background

“Concerning what we were talking about today, if you could magically change this situation in any way, what would you change?” My counselor asked. “I would change my past. I would have gone to college, said no to drugs and not cheat on Rick.” I said sadly. “Why did you decide to start on drugs?” she asked. “I don’t know. I just… Bad company, I guess? “Ms. Sinclaire, how long have you been on drugs?” she continued while making notes in her note pad. “About 2 years or more, who’s counting?” I said walking over to the window. I was about sick and tired of these bullshit counseling meetings and the questions that followed. My life has crumbled right before my eyes and I just had no other option. Rick has made me feel so low for the past few months. I just can’t take no for an answer. “Ms. Sinclaire, tell me about Rick.” She said watching me. This is the part I’ve been trying to avoid all day. He was so full of himself thinking that he’s so perfect. People make mistakes, it’s only natural. “He’s only the most amazing man I’ve ever met. The man I gave my heart to, the only man I’ve really loved for the last four years. I know I did hurt him with those other guys. Jorge, Sham, Carlos and Brandon were only good fucks when I was high. They didn’t compare to Rick. They were my friends. I didn’t mean any of it.” I said crying. I lied. They weren’t my friends. They never spoke to me unless it involved sex. I was too busy fucking around to notice the one that really loved me. After all, they were the ones who supplied me with every ounce of weed I’ve ever smoked. Rick wasn’t about living in the fast lane and trying new things. He would never spend his money on a bag of weed even if his life depended on it, so I did it for him. That’s what caused me my man.